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Dignity of the driftwood came
perilously down the path.
Twisted in sight
battle tested
guidance gave intelligence
accompanied by faith.
Sinister personalities in the shadows
bore torches in the night.
Moon’s opulence glowed
poignant through the trees.
She said to me
her hand in mine
desperate eyes of passion
her lips quivered like
the day we first locked eyes
knowing in moments we would kiss
and never feel
the need to break free
to release our love
from the sliver between us.
She held my hand and told me
this could never be again.
These were the last moments of
our companionship
but our love
and togetherness
would live on.
I led her to a plateau
rocky and ancient
and worn into a natural state.
Forged by the druids
of mystic capability
where the mystery of their method
lay just as that
of the shadow
she followed me up the softened steps.
With hands on her shoulder
the drapes of her gown fell
in one pull.
Naked in the firelight
where my torch burned on from its holder
her skin warmed orange.
I lay her nude body down
across the stone tablet
imagining its cold
against her back
yet she did not wince
or shutter
and from my cloak I revealed the dagger
crimson handle
golden trim
and blessedly forged
steel blade.
“I love you my darling.”
Her head turned in the slightest
as my arms dropped swiftly
and the point broke into her heart
with a solid thrust
and pop of the sternum.
Air left her mouth one last time
but before it finally ascended her lips
I kissed them once more
inhaling her essence for that one final
magical time
under her moon
this final dance
at this
the end of her time.

I will think of her always
when the moon is out
life is dim
and the world
needs love.



Damn this dance
High water trance
Levee station romance
Live like God in these pants

Blood gives me the reason
Can’t help these thoughts of treason
Plastic bags we put the leaves in
Clouds he blew the breeze in

Did you ever find your self rolling yourself to sleep
Tension in your belly for promises you can’t keep
From your and to your mind the demon did creep
If the sun shines again tomorrow what might you reap?

Crosses for us all to bear
The child died unaware
Wishes was ashore nowhere
Pity there’s none to care

Height of the mast
Spell to be cast
This life won’t be your last
Live it like your there is no past

Constant rhyming makes one long for school
Who’s wearing what and why are they so cool
Following girls that make you drool
Teenage boy just a fool

Type these words this afternoon
Wasting away like some buffoon
Danny Lamb played the bassoon
If I quit now it won’t be too soon


Stone cut
Diamond frost
Sliver blood
Wooden star
Corset bound cyclops
Tentacles grasp heaven
Three speak All
Coward dead Gold
River trees clouds cold
Hot mountain temper hammer
Smash cleaver flesh stool
Hairless tramp quiver scream
Chains darkness slither fate
Ravage freedom lighting symbol weapon
Mass voice dominate minority corpse
Sun breathe blind strong pure
Jupiter Saturn Mars Venus ether
Comfort mother father arms lost suckle
Christ footsteps thirteen tree serpent illumined
Castration crucifix liver singe salvation ascension
Angel aeon radiant Over-Man torment destruction
Universal love machine of massless compromise aware of the currents of vibration rippled through your soul in conjunction with the spirit and the properties of the Light if you open your being and throw away emotion I will see us there…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

“Don’t… not this time.”
“NOOOOO!!! I said… no. Never. Not again… not ever…”

“Peace be with you…”


NOTE: It looks like I was mistaken in thinking that I uploaded the entirety of the incomplete long-form poem “Seeing Hitler”. I do apologize because this more up to date version more than likely had some revisions and proofreads from the sections that were previously sent, but I did not peruse the other versions because… well, why feel bad for what was done… anyway, here is the remainder of the incomplete “Seeing Hitler” (This does start right where the last post left off, and unfortunately, mid-sentence…)hit20 hit21 hit22 hit23 hit24 hit25 hit26 hit27


NOTE: This is the prologue to an unfinished work about Gen. William Sherman and his time in the Civil War… There is more to say on it, but this excerpt is from a famous speech of his known as the “War Is Hell” speech.. when I dug into deep research on the General I found a most interesting person whose personal struggle with the times, and with the horrors of war forged a new way to use the power of hell to win in battle… even if it was the prelude to even greater horrors in the century to come.



I am happy that I was finally able to share this work here, that would have been titled, “Seeing Hitler”. What follows is a lengthy explanation regarding why I chose not to finish this work after a lot of research and a little history lesson as well.

Walter Langer traveled for close to a year interviewing associates if Adolf Hitler’s in 1942-43 as commissioned by William Donovan, director of the Office of Strategic Services (OSS, the precursor to the CIA). The aim of Langer’s paper was to, in layman terms, write a report that psychoanalyzed Hitler and shed some light on how he was able to get the people behind him, why they so blindly did so, and what was his overall psychological make up (as was revealed in the short pages offered in previous posts).
The reason I did not finish it, is because how this came about alluded to more mystery than truth.
The story goes that Langer was approached by Donovan after Langer wrote the Colonel a letter regarding an article he read about psychological warfare… an article that doesn’t say what he says it does. Langer went on to say in the forward to the book “Inside the Mind of Adolf Hitler” that after hernia surgery he was just so furious that he wrote a letter stating that the military wouldn’t know what to do regarding this.
Surprisingly, and often brushed off as pure coincidence, is the fact that Walter’s more distinguished brother William was already (or congruently became) a known agent or commodity of the newly formed  OSS (William being a history professor at Harvard, the brothers’ Alma Mater). This opens up a lot of questions, regarding the chain of events that led to the brothers Langer being under the employ of the OSS by a man in “Wild Bill” Donovan who was known to be one of the most intelligent, secretive, and well connected men in all of the U.S. military.
Donovan was a known Freemason, World War I hero and was from my area of Buffalo, NY and even led a regiment of cavalry into my hometown of Depew, NY when martial law was declared there in 1914 (yes, that certainly happened).
Nonetheless, Donovan’s Masonic connections stretched very far, and because the intelligence community is so well entwined with that of the world of secret societies, lodges and the occult, which, whether you like it or not, is what guides much of society now and did then, Col. Donovan was sent across the pond to Europe to flex his intelligence muscles and rub elbows with many important people with similar connections.
Those trips put him in Germany and Austria during the 1920s and Hitler’s rise. They also illuminate connections to Rudolph Steiner, who has connections to Dietrich Eckhart who was the mentor of one Adolf Hitler. On a side note, it has been written that Donovan was also a member or associate of the O.T.O. the group led and conjured by one Aleister Crowley, also a figure known and utilized in British intelligence and who has some connection to the Russian Revoltution… but that is something else entirely.

Meanwhile, pre 1940, Langer had been in Austria living in the house of the Freuds, Sigmund that is, and grew fond of his daughter Anna, although not in a romantic sense. Walter spoke German and was a student of the the Freuds. Now, what is interesting is that he just sort of went there on a whim and was there, as you read in the first pages of this abbreviated text, for the Anschluss which is when the German army invaded or, shall I say, strolled back to Austria and reclaimed its land to be one with mother Germany; or so it went. The point is though, that Langer’s work there was almost more of what a spy might do. Entrench himself in a place, Vienna, close to Germany so to get information and do so in the presence of a man, Freud, who was an intellectual treasure (or at least celebrity) worth keeping tabs on. Sure, Langer helped get some people out of Austria, including finally the Freuds before leaving himself, but nonetheless, his being there is all rather odd. Even more so when juxtaposed with his work the OSS thereafter.
Finally, William Donovan’s friend and cohort, Allen Dulles, was very “present” during the war as being stationed in Switzerland and for some time had a very close relationship with none other than Carl Jung, who, other than Freud, was the foremost authority on psychoanalysis (and the more I research the more I discover that Jung was in many ways his superior and also had a penchant for the esoteric and mental alchemy which is closely aligned with the occult and intelligence and, well… you get the idea). So with that, and the fact that Donovan had more than likely already met Hitler, and more than likely that Donovan was well aware of Dulles’ banking work in the 20s that spearheaded the funding of the German war machine and that they more than likely both new Carl Jung, who as I said was the authority of psychoanalysis would have given them a much greater insight into the question that was ultimately why Donovan wanted Langer to write the report, why Hitler does what he does and why the people follow him. However, here is the big hang up and the reason why I think this occurred the way it did.
Hitler, when he became Chancellor, began publicly condemning and legally banning the meetings or gatherings of any groups or “secret societies” which included a particular condemnation of Free Masonry (even though one of his biggest backers Henry Ford whom Hitler bestowed some Grand Cross to in some ceremony was a Freemason, as was Dulles who worked for a bank that supported henry Ford and his activities, and of course as we said Donovan). This is interesting because to me, it sounds as almost Hitler and in relation Donovan, were trying to blur or completely erase the connection between Hitler and the National Socialists and the U.S. intelligence community, most especially the fact that those that mentored, taught and supported Hitler throughout the 1920s all had very close ties with the same occult teachings and their leaders and thinkers that Donovan, Dulles and the rest of them had (Not to mention FDR and Churchill and Stalin all being Freemasons).

In Langer’s book (which is basically the whole report reprinted, and I know that because I also acquired the originals with all the notes and transcripts of his interviews) he mentions NOTHING of that… no interest in the occult, no magick, no nothing… Even though, if you read Mein Kampf and then look into Eckhart and his other mentors and their background and then start to research the occult and esoteric teachings… well, the whole reason that Hitler was able to do what he did was because of these practices with Donovan and Dulles… and pretty much anyone else that matters knew about… except… those that weren’t which would make up a pretty good amount of the government officials who were the audience for his paper…

OK… those are my thoughts on that… if you made this far, send me a message and if you give me your address I will mail you prize. Maybe a cookie.