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u… boy

Cracked out
Needle drip
Blood sponge
Ground Cheetos in the carpet
Spaghetti burnt stove top
Cigarette filter burn
Phlegm hack the kitty box
Mold under laundry piles
Paint peel reveals torture
Food stamps for soda pop
Lottery tickets table top
Sour body odor
Maxi pad over flow
Someone turned the lights off
He pressed his hands
Freckles crossed by tear drop
Lamb for the taking
Act like a boy now
Never let the love stop
Forced denial
Mother said it’s her fault
Blamed brown eyes for looking that way
Evil lives somewhere in a smile
Blue eyes ignorant to deviance
Bastard boy
Die boy
Better run and hide boy
Cry cry cry
We hope you
Die die die



Magnifying glass
Ant burn
Clouds pass by the sunshine
Shadows walk past the lawn
Hand picks the scab
Fell off the bike and got back on
Red Kool-aid on white shorts
Don’t look don’t look
Mother’s day 1988
Throw the Nerf ball
Sun up sun down
Hot dogs on the grill pop
Cicada hum through the oasis
Thorn tree set the property line
Blood remnant in the dirt
Night crawlers on the flesh
Drainage ditch bubble up black
Can’t find the snapping turtle
Time won’t turn back

Daddy sat a certain way
Laid on the carpet
Pet the dog
What if he spoke
Told the truth
Cried for life
Storm door swung shut
Compressed air sigh
Barefoot steps across grass
Breathless second
Dry mouth
Wood and metal weapon
Killed a deer twenty years before
One shot to one shot
Bookend murder
Death certificate self inflicted
Nothing else mattered
Everything was
Sun still rose
Sun still



Buttons Buttons Buttons
Buttons on my shirt
Sweater Sweater Sweater
Please mommy it hurts
Itchy wool my neck don’t like it
Please mommy I don’t want to
These saddle shoes don’t fit anymore
I don’t fit in his clothes mommy
Please don’t make me do it
Please don’t make me wear this
I don’t wanna comb my hair
I don’t wanna brush my teeth


Run around dizzy got smitten malice in my razor blood caption savage

Distance jogging huffing and puffing cigarette ecstacy

Oh Jesus Jesus Jesus nothing begotten on the Thrice Great

Realized man of 33

Trip fall broken teeth scrape jaw smile now sweetheart

Bikini fancy Brazillian self conscious distinction did you know what they do there?

Sand in your everywhere and shit on your face

Love this world this magical place

Can’t find my shoe lace guess I’ll slit my wrists

Fall back into the welcoming arms of mother and father

Bleed out for the cops to wonder

But all it means is less paperwork unless my dog did it and in that case no treat

Pick up the poop brush the hair take out the trash do the dishes love to hate

TVTVTVTVTVTV tell me tell me tell me

What did the shadow government say to do? Be quiet and pay my taxes

Yes Mr. President (Queen) [POPE]

I pledge allegiance to a mirage

Turn on the car and shut the garage… See you in


mere novelty

You said you knew it would happen one day
Made it feel special as it came to pass
A miracle moment as if just born
What decisions haunted you till then
Yet the varnish has peeled away
What does it say about me
Does it say more about you
What you’ve done with the gift of feeling
Of knowing this part of you that walks free
Creation you held inside you
Guilt or shame leads you astray
I am here for as much as I am lucky to endure
Life not always something one would appreciate
Yet you are not a true sufferer
It can’t be pain if it is brought upon by yourself
Narcissistic sorrow for the weak of heart and loss of complete mind
I’m still there pretending to be like one of you
Like the one I would have been
But no matter
Wouldn’t be me if anything else
Wouldn’t be you if something other
Decisions are actions of mind
Defining you like the feet that help you run
Away from what could be good
But you can’t feel
What miracles can be like
You of pity
Worthless pity


Stared at you
Hate you sometimes
Want to touch you
Can’t feel you if I tried
Don’t understand this state of mind
Pain inside my toes from knees to back
What does it mean to be the one with land in sight and water on mind
I can’t taste the blood from your heart without taking a bite
Brightness falls when cast over the dirt mound of our lives
Don’t you see the sidewalk when it scrapes your teeth
Out of body all of mind set this tape to VCR rewind
Can’t hide from the stars
Never run from the sun until the end
Spread your arms wide open and return home
Father’s arms open for your embrace
Dig your face into his chest and sob the sorrows of your mental infancy
Children in the eyes of the universe the immaculate parent of consciousness


Random sight
Mother’s flight
Left me empty
Lost outside
Dark forest
Man with a gun
Listen to the trains go by
Who would take this son

Boy of brown hair
Crooked smile
Best of all
Ran a mile
Round the court
To the park and stopped
Rode his bike
Hit a curb and dropped

Blood poured heavy from the knee
Cried and screamed his way home
Felt comfort of a demon
Aqua-net stink
Black dyed perm
Crunched feet arthritis ache
Dirty fingernails with makeup splotch
Nightmares of her image in the glass case

Why did they give him away?
To this beast… This creature
Vile departed foul disgusting wretched crippled mass of soulless flesh